Happy Birthday Baby Boy

Today, November 12th, 2008 at 1646 hrs, Ryker was born and was a wopping 1 pound 11 ounces...His little sister was born one minute later (see below)...Ryker is doing fairly well considering all things...He is on a breathing machine in the NICU...There are not many words for the hurricane of emotion that is tearing me apart right now....I am truly a broken man being held together by the images of my new children...I have been bouncing back and forth from the NICU to Cathi's room...The babies and Cathi are some what critical in their condition...I choose this picture and the one below because it has my hands in them to show just how small the babies are...They certainly are gifts from God and they are in his hands...I cannot even express the joy I feel meeting them and the fear I feel for the long road ahead...I walk around these places in a paradox of fulfillment and emptiness...I know our little angel Raiden is watching over them from heaven and pray they will be healthy...I have truly never felt so helpless, worthless, and drained as a person, a husband, and a father...but do not worry for me, I get rest when I can and starbucks has helped keep me fueled...I am excited to be getting my wife back soon and we will continue to hold each other up...Many of you have told me that you like my writing and I apologize if its a little off, I am tired...Please enjoy the photos and keep up the prayers...

Logan