Home Away From Home

Hello Everyone,

Cathi and I want to start off by saying that we more than appreciate all of the phone calls, emails, and offers for assistance during this most difficult of situations...Never in our lives have we been suffocated by so much emotion...The pain of loss is certainly overwhelming; however, Cathi and I remain very positive about the two remaining children that Cathi is working so hard to keep in so they can grow strong and healthy...

Many times in life we are all faced with challenges that truly test us and the ones that we love...However, we all have a choice as to whether we give in to the obstacle and collapse, or rise above what is in front of us and overcome what seems to be the impossible...The loss of our son is something that neither of us will ever quite overcome, on the other hand, we see what our son has given us...Raiden has given his little brother and sister a better chance at a healthy life and for that we are very thankful...There are blessings in almost every tragedy and this situation is no exception...Since Raiden has passed away, his little brother, Ryker and his little sister, Gywn are flourishing...There heartbeats remain around 150 - 160 beats per minute...Cathi is on strict bed rest and has no privileges...As hard as it is for her, she has remained in the best of spirits and we are both thankful for every additional day that she goes without complications...I have been staying at the hospital every day and night trying to help Cathi the best way I know how...I feel very fortunate to have such a wonderful person in my life...I am so thankful that Cathi has been consistently up-beat and steadfast through this entire ordeal...It is because of her, that I have been able to hold myself up these past few weeks...

Cathi is now 23 weeks and two days...Halloween is the next benchmark...On 10/31/08 the babies will have a chance to survive in the outside world in the event they are born prematurely...Obviously this is not the best scenario, but it is the first of many short term goals we have set in what seems to be an infinite journey...

Again, thank you all so much for your thoughts, prayers and support...Cathi may start seeing visitors soon; however, right now it is still difficult and we are mostly trying to get to the benchmark of viability...Please do not hesitate to write an email or post a comment on this blog...We are checking it everyday in the hospital room and I am doing my best to keep everyone updated via this site...

Take care,

Logan