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Saturday, December 6, 2008

To My Precious Angels

To My precious Angels: Raiden, Ryker, and Gwyn

The happiest day of my life was learning I was carrying three precious babies.
I got to feel you grow inside of me everyday. All three of you had individual personalities while growing inside. Your Daddy and I just new Raiden and Ryker were boys. You were always rough housing inside my belly while Gywn tried to sleep. All three of you were always so close.

On 10-14-08 I was rushed to the hospital in fear I would suddenly loose all three of you. Well I held on until 10-17, Raiden you decided you wanted to meet us too early. Even though our time with you was cut short, you WERE and WILL always be my first born….Thank you Raiden Landon Long for making me a true mommy…

After I delivered Raiden suddenly, I did what any determined mother would do. I held on to Gywn and Ryker for another month. The doctors explained that it had rarely been accomplished, but I was determined. Unfortunately I went back into labor on 11/12. I was so scared but also so excited to meet you two little babies; who for the past month had been cuddled so close that the nurses couldn’t even track your heartbeats, you were so close your hearts beat exactly the same.

Your daddy spent the entire first night of your lives with you while I recovered. He brought pictures to me but it wasn’t until I got to see you for the first time that my heart truly melted.

Ryker London, You were such a beautiful little baby. You loved to keep your hands by your head, or close to your mouth. It drove the nurses crazy because they always tried to put your hands down by your sides. Your Daddy and I were there the day they took the lights away from your body. Your Daddy and I looked down at you as you opened your eyes for the first time. You were so precious; it was the best day of my life.

Gwyneth Bella you were the most delicate little pumpkin. You had the most feminine features. You held my little finger so tight. You were such a determined little girl. You had so much of my personality. My mom always wished I would have a little girl that would make me worry late at night, well in 18 short days you made your father and I go through every emotion of being a parent. You smiled at us all of the time. You would also hold on to what ever wires were around you. You wanted so badly to suck your tiny little thumb, just like your mommy used to.

Today you all lie together again. This is and will be the hardest day of my life. I hope you are all comfy wrapped in your little blankets and cuddled up to your little woobies. Raiden, Ryker and Gwyn… You gave your Daddy and me the best few months of our lives. Thank you all for letting us realize what really matters in life. You have touched more lives in a few short weeks than most get to in a life time. Thank you sweet babies for choosing me as your mommy…I will love you ALWAYS….


Tina said...

Your words are so beautiful so completely filled with love. What a blessing you are, so strong.

What a priviledge it has been for the world to read you and your husbands most intimate thoughts and feelings.

Your precious angels have touched so many lives. I pray God gives you both the strength during this time of great pain. I pray God heals your hearts.

you have three amazing little angels to watch over you both.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family....your family of 5.

Lucco Girls said...
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Lucco Girls said...

God gave you 3 angels. He sent them to you so they would never forget the faces they were intended to look after. He gave you 3 - The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit. The 3 of your angles will give you Faith, Hope and Love always. I don't want to imagine what you are going through. I can only hope that through the power of prayer - we can all help you heal. You're added to our prayer list and we'll continue to pray for your family.
With love, thoughts and prayers,
The Lucco Family

Surviving Triplets said...

You are such an amazing be able to follow your story & what you both have gone through has been a privaledge AND honor. Thank you for opening up your world to us. Thank you for sharing your 3 gorgeous children w/ us.

May God always be by your side & your angels.

Astrid (TC)

Casey's trio said...

Thank you for sharing your beautiful children with us. I am so sorry for your heartbreaking loss. God bless your angels in heaven.

SLM said...

May you continue to find rest and comfort in the time you had with your babies. I lost triplets three years ago, and even today I struggle with the emotion of it all.

If you ever need anything, don't hesitate to ask. I'm in Orlando (a friend of Karen's) and will be here for you.

You are in my thoughts and prayers today, just as you were yesterday.

My e-mail address is


Stacie said...

Cathy, your love for your little ones shines through your beautiful words.

Much love to you...

Nicole O'Dell said...

I almost don't want to intrude on your beautiful moment with your babies...but I will, only to say...

I pray for you daily and I think you are two of the strongest people I've ever seen.

God bless you.

Jennifer said...

What you said was so beautiful. Your babies are so lucky to have you as their mom. You babies have made an impact on this world more than you will ever know.

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

The Lawrence Family.

Cibele said...

I am so sorry. May God give you strengh and peace

Kelly said...

(((HUGS))) Thinking of you all.

Yoka said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Your love for them is so strong. They didn't leave, they just went ahead. They will be your guardian angels. One day you will be reunited with them. My thoughts and prayers are with you on this difficult day.

rachael said...

i am so, so sorry for your losses. i will be praying for you and your little angels in heaven. blessings...

The Lloyd Family said...

Bless you.

I will pray God gives you the strength and comfort you need during this most difficult time.


Anonymous said...

My prayers are with your family as your angels head to heaven...together.

triplet mommy

Becky said...

Cathi and Logan,
I cried when I read your blog. My name is Becky and I was carrying triplets at the same time. I was two weeks behind you and commented annoymously several times. I too went into early labor and delivered our babies November 14th. We have traveled the same path. We lost two of our precious babies. One the day of her birth, and the other two days later. We have a little fighter in the NICU and are praying for the best. I know what you've been through. I don't know you, but then I do. I will pray for you. You do HAVE two sons and a daughter. They are just in Heaven. Be strong and feel the prayers of everyone.

Meredith said...

That is so beautiful. I am so sorry this is happening to you. There is nothing anything can say that will alleviate your pain, but know that many people are thinking of and praying for you, including people you don't know (like me). :)